ambition

what did you want to do when you were a child? teacher, doctor. lawyer, policeman, soldier? I'm quite sure most people have an answer although whether they realize their childhood dreams may be another matter all together. and I'm quite sure I have dreamt about me being in the above mentioned professions. however, I've never seem to develop any passion or desire to make those dreams real. historian, linguist, researcher, designer, engineer? these fields of knowledge are indeed interesting and with my current status and field of studies, aerospace engineering, I'm probably heading for one of the latter 3. but I wonder if I'd get bored of it after the 1st year of work, will I have enough to start my own enterprise, cross-track to politics or will I stick to it to the end? I don't have the slightest idea, much less a vague picture of my future.

I've been reading 《论语》 and it says quite a bit about education and work. in 为政第二, a phrase goes like this “君子不器。” it implies that man is not a tool made for a specific purpose, unlike kitchenware (the one made for alcohol cannot contain oil, or the one for vinegar cannot have soy sauce). hence, he should be exposed to all kinds of knowledge, learn all he can and be an all-rounded individual. hmmm...it really sounds like "上知天文,下知地理. 才高八斗,文采风流." now, I feel really dumb...

okay, back to the point. what do I wanna be in the future? I think work is just a source of income to sustain our lives in this modern era. of course it'd be wonderful if it matches one's interest though it may not be the case. but when interest becomes work/job, responsibility and accountability comes in, I believe those are the things that would kill one's passion. so the ideal situation is to have a big fat sum of money, make investments so that you have a nice income even if you don't work and take up a job of your interest. in that way, one would have no fear of being retrenched and, without financial woes, be able to focus on the interest. but that's just...an IDEAL scenario. (somehow it sounds like "working taitais" to me, when the wife works even though the husband gives her a few K every month. but fuck I'm no woman)

I dont know where my trend of thought has gone. blogger just fucked it up...(the above was retyped)

May Day in sight

in the blink of an eye, it's gonna be May soon. this week's schedule is the most packed I've seen in weeks. but all that hassle will be gone before Friday. submission of form K (Borang K) to M'sian High Commission was quite a breeze, thanks to BR who gave me a lift and get me there early. so now I'm left with getting the renunciation memo on the 30th (April *phew*) and the Oath Taking at ICA on the 6th and I should be a S'pore citizen then. one surprise, however, is that I'll have to wait for 3mths for my pink IC. I wonder why they need such a long time to get a card done. hmmm...I guess unless I'm good friend of or related to 'you-know-who' I'll have to wait.

but for some reason, Monday wasn't that fantastic. I know it's a silly thing, but it still makes me feel like shit. thus I called up Mr Oh (I hope this never gets to him), my driving instructor, for an adhoc lesson so that I can whack the accelerator. the car swerved, went over the line on the turn and there was risky overtaking blah blah. it definitely felt good until he chided me for driving so recklessly and suggested that I shouldn't go for the test this Thursday. but anyway, the lesson ended well. I'm more used to checking blind-spots now. heh

Monday night saw me taking on a third student. this one's at Dover, seems like my lobangs are getting further and tougher. but as always, I shall prevail! (that's too much Total War) I saw it in him what I was like (nearly) and what I could have been if my folks weren't there to nag at me or if they had just let me go to a neighborhood school, where friends and fiends are one, in those formative years. for that, I'm very thankful.

Tuesday was just a tad better. went for driving lesson in the late morning. it went rather smoothly except that I realize early checks and good anticipation aren't really appreciated for learners. LET'S DRIVE ONLY WHEN THE ROAD IS EMPTY! the rest of the day saw me finishing Neverwinter Night 2 official campaign and a tuition session before my dinner at 2130. I think I'm hitting the right note for the pri6 and I'm not that pissed off anymore. or is it that I've cared less?

two tuition sessions today. let's hope both will go well and make my day.

quando quando quando~

yeah right

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

when I walk home from tuition, I'll slow to a stroll at a particular stretch of the road. it's not that I'm tired from walking. after all, I've done fast march and NavEx mind you. it's just that, since the possibility of meeting you is a Poisson Distribution with X ~ Po (T) where T is time and X is the possibility, I wanna increase the chances of bumming into you again. fuck, I just wanna see you larh!

addicted to games

Neverwinter Nights 2, Medieval Total War II, Rome Total Realism Mod of Rome Total War, WahJong and, though much less of it nowadays, FB Poker...bleah

standing there I didn't know what to say...you said hello and you asked my name, I didn't know if I should go all the way...and so I'm dying inside

it's time to start anew

April...

is the name of the girl in Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (shit that was lame)

do you know, we can now view beauty OBJECTIVELY? you know, like...there would be a standard for perfect beauty and it's no longer "in the eye of the beholder". computer programs can identify beauty through math...WOW. i wonder what the perfect beauty would be like...is the hair brunette, blond, red or black? what about the skin? if we are gonna go with one perfect model, and with the current ease of getting plastic surgery, soon you'll probably see the same faces, on similar bodies of same heights on the street. probably cant even tell non-twin sisters apart. ok, i admit this may be a little too far-fetched...but well, you get my point

i wanted to rant about the oh-so-competitive package of pay-TV by Starhub and Singtel but it's pointless. i guess the brotherhood rules...really.what a wonderful package to suck the most outta soccer fans. you must subscribe to both mioTV and Starhub just to watch your team play in Champions League and EPL. come, let's all switch to watch S-League, so kindly sponsored by NTUC Income and Yeo's. or better yet, go back to kampong soccer lah~why watch angmoh run the field while you sit and couch potato at home?stay fit so that Singapore can have more PES A reserve!haha fortunately i'm no soccer fan (umh chio hokkien)

and let's all switch to potato or yam or sweet potato...rice is getting too expensive.omg, my Boon Tong Ki chicken rice!nooooo!how can you let the price of necessities soar, esp after you have raised the GST and force businessmen to top up their medisave(it's their money anyway!) by making a prerequisite for renewal of license?!