小时了了

if we take the PSLE result, extrapolate towards future academic achievements and plot the actual results that I've obtained over the pass 8 years, I would find myself falling further and further into mediocracy. with no prospect of a scholarship and little school records to boast of, it makes me realise how little I have achieved in the 8 years when most other have grown, attained, blossomed. in short, I have under-achieved. or maybe this "小时了了" is just a delusion? could I have been in the mediocre band right from the beginning?