run run run

i stopped running AGAIN!

the schedule is a mess and I'm not liking it at all. I don't like it when I have no idea what's coming next. I don't like it when I am not given an option. I don't like it when I have no free time to slack or relac-one-corner. so much unknown, so much wait-for-news, so much I'll-tell-you-later...yuck

it's like a wake-up call when your mind is questioning "what's important to you?" it's like someone holding your face so you have to look at all your deeds and sins no matter how hard to try to turn away. it's like asking yourself all the could-have-been and should-have-been. this is such a waste of time. let's look ahead instead.

okay. I have no idea what I just typed...

anyway, I finally got my pink IC today after a HALF-DAY (!!!) ceremony at Singapore Poly. coincidentally, I was wearing the same shirt as the guest-of-honour, MP Mr Arthur Fong. there were about 250 to 300 ppl, from West Coast GRC alone, getting their Singapore citizenship there today. can you imagine how many ppl are obtaining Singapore citizenship every year? and I wonder if I really look like an accountant with my specs or sound like I'll from China 'cause I can speak Chinese without all the lah-leh-lohs...

July is gonna be a busy month. may be flying to Shanghai, Beijing and Xiamen with my folks for a week or so. it'll then be followed by the NTU ODAC camp from 14th to 19th. Gryphon's cup on 2 consec weekends and there may be a camp for the CN Yang programme from 21st to 23rd. and orientation week starts on the 28th.

gotta stay in hall 3 or 16 'cause of the scholarship. I hope I can have the option not to but I'm still waiting for Eugene's reply. when I check the CN Yang Programme website earlier, there were no stated requirement to stay in the hall, unlike the Nanyang Scholarship. when I meet up with the CN Yang programme seniors, the first thing the senior mentioned was "now, y'all are also Nanyang scholars". if you put all these together, it's not hard to tell that they want to include CN Yang scholars into the same pool as Nanyang scholars. I wonder how that would benefit the CN Yang programme...hmmm. but staying in hall should be fun (away from parents!) and if I ever miss home, it's just 30 minutes away.

okay. I'll start running tomorrow morning!

sprained ankleS

how do you sprain both ankles in a day, within a span of 15 min? ask me. my shots haven't been dropping lately and that's very frustrating. no touch, lousy stroke, bad choices. that's not the kind of game any player would want but we would all go through this kind of phase, esp shooters. not saying that I'm a natural shot but I think it's decent enough. looks like I need more shooting practice and drills

the driving test was quite nerve-wrecking. up-slope was shit but I passed. so basically, I can say I have met all the goals I've set for the holiday - driving license and Singapore citizenship and on top of that, a really nice bonus, a scholarship from NTU. I should get back to my Spanish before school starts. and next up, Gryphon cup.

KAN JIONG

i'm up 4 in the morning cuz i cant sleep. counting sheeps didnt help, neither did chanting "i wanna sleep" in chinese. too much worries and anxiety for the test later. seriously, it's just a TP test. i cant believe that i'm that screwed up. sleepless over driving test?! and not for A'lvl? what the hell...i think i'll fall asleep while driving...pls pls pls...go to sleep chor yen...

boom chika wah wah

and here's Rachel(FRIENDS) doing it

i wonder

i wonder...
if you knew how I felt when you broke the news to me
if you felt my pretence when you asked me those questions that pierce right through my heart but I answered them cheerfully anyway
if you knew the words that are dying to come out of my mouth
if you noticed I always hold them back and end up weeping inside
if you ever wondered what I wonder

what it'd have been if...
I were a little braver
I were a little more daring
I had said those words to you

i wonder...
if these words would go to the intended audience
if the intended audience could understand what's been written

or just take this as a chunk of jibberish from a warped mind

splurge splurge splurge

haven't been thrifty these few days. thai express, billy bombers, ben & jerry's blah blah blah. and wasted money on some ugly pants and shirts which I now have no idea why I bought 'em.
Indiana Jones was not bad though. it's quite worth watching, the ending's a little lame though, esp since I had a Cathay voucher. and I'm going out again tomorrow! this week's seen big big holes in my pockets...I hope those parents get their tuition fees ready to patch up the holes!lol

too bad I dont have pictures to show off~ maybe I can pick up the habit of bringing a camera ard and go trigger happy everywhere, any time. then I can make this journal very colorful! =) now...where's my ixus 500?hmmm...

oh and one good news, offered the CN Yang scholars program~woohoo! but where is the official letter?! mail man (reminds me of Karl Malone), hurry up please!

muxtaapppeeee

here it is~ just 3 oldies for a start